So, It Is True

I've been pretty quiet the last few weeks. I've been dealing with a lot.

A couple of weeks ago, I went in for my 10 week ultrasound, which is standard. They check to see if the baby has a heartbeat & if your conception dates are correct and there is none, you end up miscarrying... well, I went in and I was definitely pregnant, but there was no fetus in the sack. I don't remember, they call it something. So, I found out that I would be miscarrying.

I know, I know, I have four kids. But somehow, it was still incredibly sad. The loss. It hurt so much... and then there's the loss of time - the last 10 weeks, I've been tired and sick and feeling like I haven't been giving the kids as much time as they need and they haven't been getting as much done as they should with their schoolwork. And somehow, it seems as if it's all for naught.

Somehow, I'm just trusting in the Lord that it is somehow not all for naught. That there is some sort of purpose to going through all of it.

One thing that it has shown me, is how much support I have around me with friends and family. Friends have called, emailed and left facebook notes. Friends have stopped by and others have brought food. With First Class one thing that Rod & I have really strived to create in general, among our group of friends there - is community. And somehow, we have been the lucky recipients of that community.

I have miscarried once before. About 9 or 10 years ago. Between Josiah and Jedediah. With that pregnancy, there was a fetus with no heartbeat. Although, then I didn't know what to expect, and miscarrying was much harder.

A few days after the ultrasound, I did miscarry. This time, the physical side of things seems to be more difficult. Pain pills were my friends for a few days.

Telling the kids was probably the worst of it all though. They really wanted a sister or brother. Julia still doesn't understand that I'm not having a baby.

Don't be surprised though, if you hear I'm pregnant a few months down the road - it's still on my heart to have another baby & probably now even more than before.
Copyright © 2009 by Zindra Nelson

This is a card I made online, for my Mom for Mother's Day...
I love trying out new creative things to do online...
This one was cute, but not super easy... I do like the results though.

Jedediah Then & Now: 5 Years

(layout - Jedediah Then & Now: 5 Years)
We were supposed to do a layout for out class about Then & Now. I chose a couple of shots of Jedediah. In shot one, he was almost 3, in shot 2, he is almost 8. It's amazing how much he has changed! I'm thinking that if I were to edit this layout, that I may change the two photos... and see if I can find photos of him from those ages that are more of my "favorite" photos. I was late & wanted to get through the tutorials! I love JS's tuts!

My favorite thing out of this layout - the cool ampersand "&" sign at the top left - I learned how to fill that letter with a paper. Y'all know how much I love fonts & I can use any font & fill it with a cool paper! Something that looks really amazing & it's super easy to do (in photoshop anyway!)

What has amazed me about this class in particular, is that i'm learning the skills to actually create these cool background elements myself. I told Rod tonight - I don't think i'll ever go back to traditional scrapbooking! It's tooo much work!
Copyright © 2009 by Zindra Nelson, zindra@yahoo.com

I've about had it!

My dear husband, is taking a class. No surprise there. Well, when he signed up for this quarter's classes, we realized that for in order for him to actually get his certificates, he needs to take SOSC 113. It's a 1 or 2 credit class... When he signed up for classes, the class was full - so he put himself on the waitlist - fully expecting to NOT get into it.

A week or two later, he found out that he got in to it. Alls good, right? It's been one headache after another! We cannot find the required book for this class! What? Huh? Well, the teacher has listed "Proven Resumes" as a required text for the class. The bookstore at Skagit wasn't able to get any copies because it's out of print. OOP. Ok, so we look online. We've ordered it twice and both orders got cancelled. Apparently, it's either not on the shelf when the seller goes to ship it... (probably already sold it to someone else in Rod's class.)

How can a teacher require a book that you cannot get????

I ordered it for the third time today... we'll see how it goes. I may start calling all of the local/semi-local used bookstores to see if any of them have it. Heck, with Rod going to Redmond everyday, from Bellingham to Redmond is "semi-local."

I'm just wondering what Rod's supposed to do for his assingments in the mean time... I guess it's time to email the teacher and let him know what's going on. So irriating!

Do you have a copy? I know, it's one of your favorites, that you just cannot loan me off your own personal bookshelf. Fine!

Copyright © 2009 by Zindra Nelson, zindra@yahoo.com

Happy Birthday Spencer Layout

(layout: my layout of Spencer's birthday at C.E.Cheese)

Awhile ago, I signed up for a digital scrapbooking class at jessicasprague.com. That was before I knew I was pregnant. Well needless to say, I did not keep up with the class because I've been sick & tired. So, the last couple of nights, after the kids went to bed - I've been working on my layouts. This is one of three from this class (although there are minor projects, that i'm not sure if i'll finish or post.)

What I really like about this layout is it's design. I learned how to use a brown overlay over the group shot that really made a difference in the photo - not that you can tell. What I really don't like about taking a digiscrapping class is that they kind of tell us what the design needs to be about. I do much better if my stuff comes from the heart.

What I'm hoping to do is create templates that I can reuse over and over by changing some of the features to fit the designs. In this class I'm learning a ton about designing - Photoshop is the bomb!

I've had a quite a few friends request info on digital scrapbooking and am considering putting together a workshop to show people how to get started. In my spare time, of course :D

Zindra's to do's:

get newsletter done

get ezine done

find someone to take over newsletter

help kids with display night projects

Birthday shop for Jedediah - we're getting him a new bike

check on a couple of bills

pay our pse bill & mom's pse bill

Figure out what we'll do for Jedi's birthday~

we're thinking maybe CECheese (his request)

Decide whether or not the kids are a going to horsecamp this summer

mail property taxes

Copyright © 2009 by Zindra Nelson, zindra@yahoo.com